There are boys I call “Baby”
Whom I have dinner with
Who hold my hands when they’re free
Who love the game I invented
But there’s only one
Whose door I’ll knock
When I’m tired and wounded
To whom I said, “I’m home.”
An unspoken eulogy for William A Fall. The love of my life.
Like a warm big hug in winter day, you’ve saved and warmed me. You gave me the love I never thought I deserved. You found me. You kept me close. Even when it was impossible.
It’s an honor to know you. And honestly I don’t know how to let go. I want to keep you like a kite, flying high but it’s always around. Even if one day I open my hand and let it fly free, I hope it’ll still fly free around me.
It’s hard, but I will set you free, Will. Thank you for the memories that I can hold forever. There’s no one like you. Thank you for choosing me. I wish our story didn’t have a countdown. I wish it never reached zero. I wish..
One day I may find a man and invite him to my life. The way I invited you. But I will always love you. And you will always be remembered.
I wish I could draw and send my love to you. Hang it on your wall in your room. As a proof of my existence, our existence. I hope it’s strong enough to help you going through anything.
It may seem like I’m moving on. I have life, even if it’s half of a whole. But you have to know, I pray that our path will cross again someday. Like a final answer of all the questions we have right now. I hope someday, I finally get what it’s all about.
Until then, Sven. I keep my love for you.